Niggerfaggots, I’ve been studying my ASS off for the last five years. It had always bothered me, not having a college degree. I was a “gifted” child who was reading by three. In my teenage years, I became hypnotized by jewish programming and went down a bad path, making terrible decisions and mistakes, which I take full accountability for and always have since my divorce, quite frankly (I laugh when you guys talk about how terrible women are. I literally gave my ex-husband EVERYTHING in my divorce and he still tries to fuck me over financially every time he can). But I digress.
I was a person who never applied myself educationally. I wanted to be a good role model to my son to show him how perseverance can take you places you never thought possible. I’ve showed him this twice in his young life. We have a bond that’s stronger than I’ve ever had with anyone and he is so proud of me.
I went back to school, but I also woke up to the jew during this time. I watched a microbiologist attempt to tell us how effective vaccines are. I’ve sat through lectures with the most retarded “statistical data” about niggers and how they have it so much worse than us because of their “socioeconomic background”. I sat through it all, cringed, and performed the best I could, knowing my career would be furthered.
Yes, my career is furthered. I got offered my dream job a month ago and I have a nice looking future ahead of me. I have a 3.87 gpa and get to wear two honor cords. I still look good for my age and am healthy.
But I feel NOTHING. I look back at my life and how much different it would have been if my parents weren’t only concerned about themselves and their drinking and their social lives, but actually taught me how to make good relationship choices. I wish my mom hadn’t told me she wished I was never born and emotionally and physically abused me to where I felt there was no other choice but to drink and smoke my life away for 15 years.
Everything I’ve become, I’ve figured out on my own. I’ve been a phoenix more than two times— losing everything, and having to come back. I’m tough, and I persevere.
But here I am, still a product of a jewish system. I have a beautiful and wonderful child, but he’ll be gone soon too, going into a jewish system. I have to get ready for this graduation ceremony and I just don’t care. I feel like a fraud. I’m pissed at myself for being a retard during the formative years of my life.
Edit: Just wanted to say I am overwhelmed and humbled by the amount of support here. Thank you so much, everyone. I love this little corner of the internet we’ve created here!
I am a cancer patient, I was soaked in Agent Orange type chemicals during the Vietnam War .. various types of "highly unusual" cancers pop up virtually over night they most often get surgically removed .. the whole process is very painful, I do not take pharmaceutical drugs at any time, however to make the pain bearable I smoke marijuana every day .. it doesn't take the pain away but it puts you into a frame of mind that makes the pain easier to bear.
I have been getting it via doctor's prescription at legal outlets .. no more, when you go in it is either "yr prescription has run out despite there are repeats left," or "you have received yr monthly limit" .. so I got both those reasons for not getting it this week, when I said ok we'll make a new appointment with the doctor they said the next available was 16 January .. too bad about the pain yuk yuk .. they think it's a joke .. so we are in bad pain and we don't get any relief .. what a bummer.
None of this should be surprising to any native NYC resident who isn’t a brainwashed Marxist retard. They choose to roam the streets because that’s where the drugs are. The shelter will not let them come in and out at night in search of booze and crack, so they don’t want to be there. It’s just that simple.
